1. Someone through curiosity had to come up with it and second
2. There needed to be a buyer for the innovation.

If the problem could be solved in any other way, even though it might’ve been a breakthrough, but it would not catch on, unless you had endless subsidizing but at one point it would actually need to be useful.

Nothing starts without a real need, maybe curiosity is what starts it but necessity is the fuel for it.

I failed him as a older brother in creating an environment where he has to be perfect. It got me thinking about how I can better guide him to be what he wants. I’m not sure what the answer to that is, but perhaps I could tell a story about me, making a similar mistake. What can I do so that him becomes the best version of himself. I tried asking him what he wants to do. He said an engineer, but I think he may be biased because I’m in school for engineering and he doesn’t really know anything else. One thing that might help is an exposure to different things, but it has to be fun. I brought him to my robot club, and he didn’t have a great time, he likes music, he takes piano lessons and sings in the choir. He doesn’t really like sports the same way I do. Doesn’t like karate, doesn’t want to do swimming. He wrote a script about a rap battle, but he didn’t go through with it. He edited videos for no reason, he has a bunch of videos on youtube, (primarily hockey edits). He plays fantasy hockey and knows about all the hockey players and trades and whatnot, his older brother (not me) is super into hockey.

I asked him to edit one of my videos, but he didn’t do it. I suspect it was because it wasn’t really fun for him. He likes making montages and I was pulling him away from that. Reading this back now, I think my brother is doing great. I think the reason I feel like I need to make him perfect is because I’m so nitty gritty about everything now. I didn’t understand that he’s just a kid, that does what’s fun for him at the moment. That’s pretty much what I did too, magic tricks, origami, soccer, rubiks cube and when I was 12-13ish I started coding. A big one was watching clash royale, slither.io, diep.io, bloon TD battles, bloon TD5, tanki online on Youtube.

You can try different simple assumptions to see if it works. Now the question of how to track if something is working or not is a hard task.

Let me boil it back to Judo: Ultimate aim (complex goal) : Throw

1. off-balance

2. Push/pull/ or use your legs to throw. The reason this is a seperate step is that you can’t directly push someone down easily you have to off-balance them by creating angles, feinting .

We focus on the off-balance movement with no resistance essentially simple system. The outcome is clearly visible, you can see/fell that they are off balance . Now we practice the throw with no resistance, simple system known inputs & outputs. Now when we fight we are making a list of simple systems.

In a complex fight when I try and off-balance someone, they will resist, so I have to try another method. The important thing to realize is that now you have to adapt to the complex system, but you use the simple system as a first step.

That’s what I need to do for my startup, and an important note is when you start you don’t know how to do deal with the complex system so take the simple systems as gospel. Mastering the rules before you can add your own style.

Do as the sensei says, you can’t contradict them because you have never thrown/ done a startup. In this case my sensei is going to be “The lean startup” and strategies, This will be my sensei and I will master those methods. I’ll talk to mentors about it and then we’ll figure out what to do.

This flurry of good emotions can only come if you truly think you are getting better. This feeling of getting better is the fuel behind passion, Once you hit a plateau it gets harder to keep going. When you can’t see the external success, or indicators tell you did a great job. For example, me throwing someone is the ultimate goal in Judo, but this can stop you paradoxically from being the ultimate Judoka. If I’m always just motivated by throwing people and I stop training for months when I can’t throw people I’ll never be a great Judoka, because if there are so many parts of the game you have to work on and the only way you’ll do that is by being okay in those uncomfortable situations where you could get thrown. Point is its really easy to keep going when you are realizing your ultimate goal. Natural talent you won’t get you to be the greatest Judoka. At one point you will have met your match and now either you give up as loose fight while getting readies for the most important fight LIFE

After weekend class I’m throwing people, left and right, even 3 brown belts. They have significantly better technique than me but I threw them because of fundamentals. This caused a chain reaction where since now I was good at Judo, or at least I got better fast. It got super fun In Judo the best outcome is you throw them. I was getting the best outcome against better Judoka, A great feeling and I wasn’t getting injured. Two great things were happening ! I trained even harder and got better results. Now today’s session I kept getting thrown, Now the passion for Judo is not as much because now that I’ve been humbled by getting thrown by a white belt, and orange belt. I feel like my Judo has a long way to go. My Judo has improved but it’s still really far from perfect and I’ll always be striving. Often times passion can be the flurry of emotions that come with being good at something.

Shoutout Jack for the photo!

x is defined for all real, meaning x exists for 1.01, 1.0000101, any number that you can think of it exists, another way of looking at it is that it has infinite divisions. Going from 1 to 2, you can go from 1 to 2 by jumping by 0.5 (1.0 → 1.5 → 2.0) or you can jump with 0.1 (1.1 → 1.2 → 1.3 … → 2.0) or you can jump infinitely smaller and take an infinite amount of jumps to get there, that’s what it means by continuous. Numbers so when

That’s how math works but the real world application is Discrete . Let’s say we do population growth for humans given by

Here,

because it has to be a whole positive numbers since we can’t have half people.

because population can’t be half or quarter humans it has to be a full human.

Now talking this further. We see the world as a discrete machine, even though it seems like your phone is always there, it might not be there in between the little jumps that your eye is taking. The eye is around 60 frames per second. Each second your eye is taking 60 pictures, that string together to seem continuous. My argument is that you can’t know what’s happening in between each frame, what if something is happening 600 frames per second, like someone shooting a gun, things might be happening so fast that we can’t see it.

There are two assumptions that you can take:

1. The world is continuous.

2. The world isn’t continuous. - I’m not doing this analysis right now

The world is continuous

If the world is continuous and we are a discrete system, there’s no 100% way of knowing what the continuous reality of the world is because we are at a set frame rate of sensory input.

Then we have to check Nyquist’s theory of aliasing. Nyquist says that if our sampling rate is two times the rate at which the universe is existing, then our sensory input is accurate. In this case our analyzing frequency would a number let’s say 60 Hz, and the universe is infinity.

So through Nyquist we’ve proven that we can’t accurately see a continuous world.

I’m assuming that we live in continuous world, just because we can’t see something it doesn’t stop existing. The phone you are reading on exists even when you blink or look away. My statement is that “the continuous existence of materials is an assumption”. The reason comes back to continuous vs discrete. Although we assume to live in a continuous world we are discrete animals. We can only sample the world as our nerves let us. A better analogy would be the way we see. Your eyes can only perceive an non-infinite numbers of frames. We have no idea if the world exists in between those frames. let’s say you were watching a 10 second video but you could only see one frame per second it would be clunky and you would fill in the gaps in your head. Now imagine you got 2 fps, 3 fps, all the way to max fps you would know what happened. Think about a magician that could choose your fps, the awkward cuts, would be the perfect time to put a bunny in his hat or put the coin in your pocket. So we can’t know what’s happening in between our limited perception. Maybe this is what the Hindus meant by Maya.

Now we can come to the same conclusion that Rene Descartes came to, with more mathematical rigour which is Cogito ergo sum. I think therefore I am. Honestly I like his way of getting to the I think therefore I am argument, his way is by saying we might be living in a dream, because have you ever had a dream and you wake up, and it’s like damn I really thought I was flying for second there.

Beginning to answer this question is hard, but I’ve found a great starting point. “Never do anything in secret or anything that you would wish to hide.” Jawaharlal Nehru (The first prime minister of India said this in a letter to his daughter Indira Gandhi, the first woman prime minister of India. This is the same understanding I received from “Crime and Punishment”, but Nehru said it succinctly.

You can’t honestly say, “Hey, yeah, I stole that,” or “Hey, I lied to you.” If you can’t honestly say it with your chest out and be proud of what you did, then there is an issue there, and the logic, the part where it breaks, is when you think it’s okay. What if you think stealing is okay, and then you’re proud of doing it as well? I think that’s when you really have to go deeper, and some of that is answered by looking at Plato’s Republic. Plato/Socrates points out is that education is a very important part of justice. He talks about censorship of anything bad, anything evil, shouldn’t even be mentioned in youth. There shouldn’t be an alternative way of thinking to Plato’s prescribed justice. ( There are issues with that aswell)

So if I had to go back and tell myself how to act as a good person, I would definitely think a great starting point would be: how do I feel about it? When I do certain things, how do I feel about it? Can I say that with my chest? When I’m confused about when something is good or bad, is that something I’m okay saying with my chest? Honestly, it’s comparable to Kant’s categorical imperative or the golden rule is saying, “Treat others the way you want to be treated,” but there’s such an easy loophole in that. You can say, “Hey, I wouldn’t mind if someone stole from me if they had nothing and really needed the money.” There are ways around it, but adding this to your morality tool kit can defnitley fill some of thos gaps.

By this standard there are many things I’ve done in the past that I’d like to stay hidden. I’m not too worried if those come to light. My fear stems from the actions that I continue to do, that I’m ashamed to do. This is a seperate affair from making mistakes, that’s natural and I can forgive myself. However what about the mistakes that I know I am making. I keep stumbling on the same rock over and over again. Maybe I’m not trying hard enough, or maybe I’m doing too much. I guess this is what keeps life interesting. I’m not giving up on being as good of a person as possible.

Side NOTE : OMG I’ve caught myself giving unsolicited advice so much, and I need to stop doing that. I hate it when people do it to me, and unsolicited advice, isn’t really good even if it’s good advice. The person hearing is just trying to get out of the conversation. Me lecturing them on anything isn’t going to do anything, just like how when my parents told me not to lie, about things I never listened. Yeah just on the look out for that, I’ve done it twice, and I really don’t want to be that guy.

I love summer so much.

1. Maximum Efficiency : The best of use physical AND mental effort to get the best results

2. Mutual Welfare and Benefit : Honestly we don’t talk about this enough, and this is definitely something I need to work on.

3. Perfection of Self : Judo is more than just the the physical, it also strengthens your character and disciplines your mind.

Besides the philosophy, fighting for me, whether it’s wrestling, judo or bjj is when I am truly happy. It’s not even about winning or loosing, its more about being in that moment when you forget everything else, it’s just you and that person you are fighting. Time slows down, you are just focused on getting your grip, feeling their weight, looking for opportunities, seeing a weak spot, going for a throw, and then kablam, you get throwed because you didn’t go in fast enough. That’s a great feeling, that feeling is amplified when you can talk to your partner and ask them what went wrong. For example I saw one of my senseis put his leg up twice, and I was ready to sweep him all the way the third time, and bam he swept me with his other foot. The curiosity of how every fight breaks down is so beautiful to me. There are infinite number of permutations/sequences of throws your opponent can do, and some of it can be drilled, and some of it is just noticting the small little breathing, when they feint or noticing the slight shift of weight before a throw. Noticing this things require skill that is learnt outside of the Dojo, it is how you go about your everyday life. I believe it truly matters, to be a good judoka, is to be an aware person. Noticing the small little things, like closing a door the whole way, things like sitting with proper posture. Respecting people when they are talking to you. Being on time when you get invited to places. All these things affect your Judo because there is only one practice and one way. Miyamoto Musashi said the way is in everything, and this is the way.

Shoutout Sunil for reminding me of the way

I watched a TED talk a couple years ago that talked about how generalists that specialize later in their career tend to make more money than those that specialize early on. The reason I find this believable is because the generalists would have a wider array of experience to draw on verses the specialists. One thing I do struggle to articulate is the scope of generalists and specialist, in essence are we measuring specificity by number of hours worked on something? At what point is the generalists becoming a specialists and when is it a good idea to specialize.

Charlie Munger provides a great explanation of this in Poor Charlie’s Almanack. He proposes that one should know the main ideas in all the sciences specifically the ones you are not trained in, and ones not directly taught in school. The reason Adam smith’s division of labour is fantastic is because it’s labour, its doing the same thing over and over and over again. It doesn’t change, and the more times you do it, the better you get at it. For example driving, I’m sure everyone had a sensory overload when driving for the first time, but now people are texting, scrolling, and keeping a conversation while driving. The reason division of labour doesn’t apply so well with knowledge work is because it is not a complex environment, it’s like you’re going from a bicycle, to a car, to a semi-truck, to a airplane. The main purpose is still to move from A to B, but the controls are much different. This is where you have to think about how everything fits together. If you’ve ever made anything for people, you know that you can’t rely on the masses thinking rationally. It’s like telling all your friends to work out, something that’s clearly rational but their interests may lie in something else. I definitely botched the example but what I’m trying to say is that when you are in the real world doing something the formulas don’t work, you need to think about all the different things, and specifically all the different incentives involved. It’s hard to think about all these different things if you have only one specific mode of operating. As Charlie would say, you would have a man with a hammer tendency, to a man with only a hammer, everyone problem looks like a nail. Trying to live in this complex world like that, would be to be a one-legged man in an ass kicking contest.

What I’m trying to say is division of labour works better when it is a complex task in a simple environment, an environment that doesn’t change, and the output and input are predictable. This is not the case with knowledge work, specifically the type of work that will change the world, dividing each segment amongst people is not going to solve any complex task in a chaotic environment without each discipline knowing the others on a general level.

What I’m not saying is to be a generalist forever, but to not ignore the principles that affect your discipline. Charlie Munger advocates for constantly learning things outside your domain, using any organizational ethos that works.

Another thing I realized too was that my writing was dry because my brain wasn’t really getting any new interesting information. Now that I’m reading the Republic it’s like the thing between my ears is working again.

Take all of this with a grain of salt obviously.

Shoutout Gurmehar for this photo. I’ve been staying put in Edmonton

I’m kinda crazy about living life in the right way, which I don’t even think exists as a universal but it definitely exists for myself, and perhaps there are some general principles that we can adopt universally.

I’m super gun-ho about doing the “right things” even if it causes me discomfort, and I hate it when I catch myself doing that was working for me so well, and having to change because I don’t think it’s right.

For example, getting into an event that I really wanted to attend during AI conference ( one of the biggest in Canada). I didn’t buy tickets and the people at the door were not checking lanyards. I could’ve easily gotten a friend to slide me his lanyard, and then proceed to network like crazy, but I didn’t because it wasn’t right. I talked to the reception to finesse my way in, and she said there’s no way. I waited another 10 minutes, revised some jokes, came up with some objection handling, and went back in, this time she got mad, and I have to leave. Honestly, I don’t blame her, she’s just doing her job.

Anyway, the point of this isn’t to illustrate that I am a saint, for that you’d have to meet me in person( just kidding). The real, self-serving reason I choose to always follow the rules is so that I don’t start slipping ethically. Today it’s just parking and getting into an event, but I don’t want that to snowball into me cheating on my wife or anything.

I used to be the most devious man I knew. I did not have a moral compass if it didn’t mean killing. I remember the first time I stole something in grade 6, and I got caught so I stopped stealing entirely. If I didn’t get caught I’d probably steal a lot more. I cheated on the chemistry test in grade 12, I had the answer key in my calculator, and I wrote a song about it. Recently, I don’t think I’ve been the best friend to people, and I wish I had treated people better, something that I wasn’t really thinking about it.

I don’t really believe in hell, but the version of hell I do believe in is me hurting the people that I love the most.

Now the reason I WAS SO EXCITED to share this is because in Plato’s republic he says

Which is essentially what I believe too, but I couldn’t have said so concisely. I don’t want to breakdown the entire argument, if you want it that bad you can ask me. However, the part I enjoyed the most about it was the disharmony in the soul. If you commit injustice against your fellow man, it is disharmony in your soul that you have to live with.

The natural question is what if you don’t feel that disharmony, GREAT QUESTION! This is why Plato/Socrates says education is super important, because only education can show what an ideal situation would look like, and yes the ideal situation probably doesn’t exist, but if you feel guilty about not doing the ideal things, especially in the big things in life, we will have a better world, a more ideal world. Even though people say that the world is evil, and everyone is out to get you, it’s still a lot better than before, women have rights now. I’m not a slave in India, I do feel like we are making steady progress to a better and better world, a more ideal world, but it starts with education of the ideal.

NOTE: If you are really interested about if you commit a crime and don’t feel the guilt, a great book to read is Crime and Punishment, that book changed my life, and I really started to think about truth in a different way, but Dostoevsky’s so good at writing that you might take something else away from that book.

Connection to Calculus

This makes a little rectangle. Let’s say with these little rectangles you can make any shape(dog)

|          _ _
   |         |   |_ _
  _|         |       |
 | |_______|         |
 |         |    _    |
 |   _ _   |   | |   |
 |  |   |  |   | |   |
_|__|___|__|___|_|___|____

Now let’s imagine these little rectangles shrink so small into parts called infinitesimal units.

Now since we have really really small pieces we can make a better dog

|         
   |          _..__
   |        .'     `-.
   |       /  (o) (o) \
  ((_     |            |
   \  `'-.|      __    |
    )      `-._______.-'
   /                  \
  /   _.._      _.._   \
 |   /    \    /    \   |
_|__(_\____)__(_\____)__|___

Now, thank you for reading this far my point is our life is made up of these infinitesimal parts. Parts that seem like they don’t matter but they do. Over time as .

All we can really control are the tiny little moments, even as small as the thought you are having at this every instance.

The reason I wanted to write this is because the dx better illustrates why you should care about all the small moments in life, specifically our thoughts, because thoughts →actions→habits→life. I would always tell myself ‘‘just this once”, or “I’ll start tomorrow”, or a “small little bit can’t hurt”. These statements are true, it doesn’t really matter if I start now, and that little piece of fast food isn’t going to cause cancer, but its much deeper than just a moment. Infact, that might be the last time you thought about it, because pretty soon the next time someone brings up fast food you are probably going to eat it without thinking about it. I can admit this has happened to me so many times, where I’ll say I’m going to listen to podcasts and take my laptop to bed, and just watch videos all night long, ruining the next day.

Taylor Swift has released over 280 songs. I’m sure she’s tried to make really good music from day 1, but now she’s getting really good at it.

I don’t listen to a ton of Taylor Swift but I think her music has a good overall message.

Shoutout Rahul for giving me this photo.

Travel Bug

I really want to travel, it seems like everyone on instagram is backpacking through Eurasia right now. I’m honestly kinda jealous but, I’m gonna try and make time for it.

However, the plan is go on mini side plots to quench my thirst for new experience. That’s all I can really do right now, so I’m gonna try new side quests. I’ve been trying to learn Hindi for a minute now so I’m gonna get back on that, and I’ve been tryna do the backflip since last week.

Here’s my best attempt so far

Having the right people by your side is invaluable

I was talking to Alan, who previously interned at Tesla and he challenged my thought process, made it difficult for me to maneuver around his calculated barrage of questions. He said I couldn’t give a coherent answer, he said I didn’t know why, I tried to break his logic by taking his approach to higher levels of abstraction, knowing deep inside he was right. I wanted to walk away with my pride, but that was my first mistake. Alan was right on the money, I bet he sniffed it out within the first minute. He figured out I had no idea what I was doing, moreover my attempt at figuring it out was lack luster. I love Alan and I learnt so much from him.

Having the right people by your side is invaluable

I give up meat on Friday, (except fish) and I forgot to tell my mom. When I checked my lunch it was paneer instead of chicken and I felt so loved in that moment. It may seem small but it put a smile on my face

Having the right people by your side is invaluable

Inspired by Alans thinking, I researched the way how Space X and Tesla were ran. Everything is questioned down to first principles. If they can do it within the laws of physics they will find a way to do it.

If I could learn this much from Tesla and spaceX How about Apple, Amazon, Google, What can I learn about the people that shaped those companies. Even though some are dead, and I can’t talk to others I can read books, and understand their thinking.

Having the right people by your side is invaluable

Every single week at least someone tells me I can do it. They believe in me, even though I am having fun and learning. I do feel immense pressure on me, questions like is construction the one? Can I break this wall down by myself? Do I have enough experience? Am I working hard enough? The community around me gives me the strength to go on.

Having the right people by your side is invaluable

Thank you for reading : )

I went to a normal high school, played sports and did all the things an average highschooler would do. All my friends did the same.

Never thought about what I was doing whether it was ethical or not. No one really cared and it was fun. Now I’m in University and my friends that I see everyday are all Muslim, and they practice restraint by eating Halal, praying 5 times a day and so on. This forced me to take a look at myself unconsciously and now I pray a lot more and I’m more invested in my spiritual side as well as being a better person. Not by increasing money or faith but through practice of virtues like truth, honesty, temperance and courage.

I didn’t plan to be more truthful or constantly be nicer to people, but arguably this is the most important thing in my life. You could say that I would have gotten to this stage without any friends through introspection and you are right. Man is a social creature. I would have had to fight to my some of friends on not listening to bad music and following virtue whereas my current friends that’s the default state.

Now my epiphany is that you should always try to find the best people to be around. I used the word “best” so the reader can define the best for themselves. I do want to point out that this can lead to silos in your thinking. In order to be opened minded. I should read more especially authors that I don’t agree with and spend still amount of time with everyone although the core group of people is crucial.

Not everyone needs to have a front row seat in your life - Joyce (my friend’s mom)

Though it’s been 3 years since she said I’m only beginning to understand it now.

Not only the the core group of people, but also the authors that you read. I idolize Benjamin Franklin, and even though I can’t spend time with him. I can read his biography, thereby knowing him as a close friend.

What actions going forward

• Be conscious of people you are around, you don’t have to cut anyone off but give everyone what everyone is due. Friendships like wine only sweeten with age, so I want to keep as many long term friends as possible.

• Try to find people that you want to be like and be around them more. This should be effortful like planning workouts with people that have common goals. ( Reach out to me if you are interested in entrepreneurship)

This week I’m going to Edmonton Unlimited to learn more about the startup community.

Someone I admire

Adven Villa, this guy might be the most committed guy on the planet, in all my friends, including myself. He’s been making videos for 2 years now and his podcast is at 182 episodes. Take that in 182 episodes, he’s found so many people to interview. This guy has 1.3k videos which is a testament to his conviction, like he just keeps going. I sent him a text the other day about this and he says “I do it for the love of the game”. Love it, he’s gonna be successful no matter what and yeah .

Let’s goo Adven.

Something that I think about is whose better off, the man who wants everything and gets most of it, or the man that doesn’t want anything, and probably gets something. Epictetus the slaves headstone capture’s this perfectly.

Here lies Epictetus, a slave maimed in body, the ultimate in poverty, and favored by the gods.

I’m not sure what the future holds, but sometimes I worry that I’m engrossed in business. Maybe, once I get there, I’ll realize it’s not worth it, but if I stop now, and take the moral high ground of being poor for the sake of virtue. That would be a cop out in my books.

Anyway, a long way to say why I don’t have a 5 year plan, but Cody convinced me that I should think about what it looks like, and told me it’s a good exercise to see where you are headed and where you want to go.

My vision:

I wake up super early, probably around 4-5 AM, and then I work on something I care about. For the time being it’s probably going to be the business but in the future, I want to just learn, understand math, music, literature physics, biology, and economics. Charles-Augustin de Coulomb found Coulomb’s Law which explains how force and electric charge is related, he did this when he was still in the military, after he retired and focused on science . That would be so cool, if I can write or figure out some relationship to contribute to humanities knowledge. Paradoxically, I don’t think I’ll contribute if I make that my goal, but if I can earnestly be curious, it might work out, but even if it doesn’t it’ll be an honour to understand the works of the great people before me.

Honestly that’s it, I’d like to get a workout in later in the day, and I imagine in 10 years or so I’d have kids so probably spend time with family. I’d be a happy camper as long as I get my 4-5 hours in the morning of uninterrupted work.

What’s cool is that I’m kind of living the dream life right now, although I don’t have the financial freedom to spend it solely on my interests I have to find a creative way to find interesting things that still make money (essentially a startup). Which is also cool, since I’m forced to think outside the box to discover something where the venn diagram of my interest and what the world needs.

Side note : It’s not everyday that you are forced to learn something that you would have never learnt through your own curiosity, so that’s been cool too. I’ve never wondered about how houses are made, but I’m learning more and more about it everyday.

THANK FOR READING THIS IS MY 150TH POST!!!!

I really appreciate all my dear subscribers. There’s people on this list that I’ve known since Elementary school all the way to present day. I’ve been sharing my life in this blog since my gap year in 2023, from selling cars, stand up comedy to engineering. I’ve covered a lot of ground delved into everything I found interesting and have had some great conversations from this. This whole thing was inspired by having good conversations with people, and my hope is that we’ll get to talk about something interesting soon.

It’s not all bleak for people like me, I’m sure you have to consume good literature to some degree but moving forward I’m going to understand rather than regurgitate.

I haven’t felt sad or depressed in so long, like it feels so weird not feeling like getting up and not having an automatic smile on my face. Why do I feel this way? My head hurts all the time from sinus or whatever, but why am I not excited about waking up tomorrow? I don’t want to do a construction startup is that why? I don’t want to go to work and build things. I don’t want to clean dust, shovel snow and drill into walls. Is this where the startup before me stopped, is this the point at which they said okay, I’m tired of uncertainty let me get a job and enjoy life? Is this a genuine “I don’t want to do this moment” or am I just getting tired of this? One thing that saddens me is that I’m not reading or writing as much as I should be and it’s frankly making me feel like I’m not having any new ideas. I have to start reading and writing again I feel like it was truly a north star in my life. I could write out all my worries and let them breathe on paper and once I’ve seen the issue I could see how it can have a better ending than the way it’s going.

Awareness

I bash people that aren’t motivated and lazy, the same way I bash myself about being lazy, but a friend recently told me that awareness comes from God. Awareness is something that has “God/parent/someone/something” has to give you, because we aren’t living in a single player game. I am extremely thankful for being aware of myself and what I could do to get become better, but for those who aren’t it might not be their time yet. I bet there are so many things that I’m not aware I should be doing, however I don’t know what I don’t know. In this case all you can do is wait till you are more aware, and I’m not sure where that comes from.

Empathy

I learnt how to have more empathy. I feel like I definitely did some silverning to friends, instead of trying to relate to them and understand their plight.

(Shoutout Josh and Week of Welcome)

The LEAN STARTUP

The book is split into 3 parts

Vision

1. Start

2. Define

3. Learn

4. Experiment

Steer

1. Leap

2. Test

3. Measure

4. Pivot

Accelerate

1. Batch

2. Grow

3. Adapt

4. Innovate

As I’m reading this book I’ll be thinking of mistakes that common startups made and have that as list of mistakes that I will justify before making or avoid entirely

1. Start

• Avoiding all forms of management pross and discipline leads to more chaos than success, the authors first startup faliures were of this kind.

• Lean startup comes from Lean manufacturing revolution developed at Toyota

• Lean startup is looking at progress through the eyes of validated learning (chap. 3)

• Allow entrepreneurs to make testable predictions

Build -> Measure -> Learn -> (back to Build)

Rant

One thing that’s truly been pissing me off is that I can’t take my own advice to the extent that I want to. I try to live a life based on simple principles, but it seems I can’t abide them. like for example waking up at 5 AM, it’s not that hard to do, but I miss days or another simple thing is being talking to people. I wouldn’t say I’m horrible but I do forget things sometimes. It’s like theres someone in me that’s thwarting my progress towards virtue, that someone's me I guess. I’m not sure what I’ll do the in future but I’m getting really frustrated with not being able to follow my own principles. It’s not even like I want to be perfect but I know I can do better than this right now. I’m not talking about being rich, gaining power or fame. What’s pissing me off is why can’t I do the things I set out to do? why do I always fall to the wayside, sometimes I feel like this is out of my control. I can make my system tighter, and set up guard rails to prevent outburts, but systems in real life always fall apart. I’m not stoic enough I think is the reason, things get me down. If someone yells at me or if I accidentally do something dumb on the road, and someone honks at me, or if I act in a way contrary to how I should’ve acted I’m not able to get back on track immediately. I let it mess some of my day up, so I wanna get better at remaining centered.

One thing you can never know is if something will be worth it in the end. It’s almost futile to think about such things but I wonder how I’ll look back on my time. Even though currently I’m missing out on hanging out with friends and going on trips. I don’t think I’ll look back on this and feel regret. I’ve noticed that I always look back in a positive light, especially my childhood. My childhood was fun, but it’s not like I didn’t get into trouble, there were plenty of tears shed, but I still think it was a great time.

I wonder if I should be spending more time having fun with friends, and doing things people in their 20s do. I guess the biggest fear is having no friends, and no one to share my wealth with.

Thanks for reading guys, I apologize for the delay, and I know I can write better than this but I was just super lazy this weekend.

I was alone, in a cold building just sweeping, vacuuming and cleaning the site overall. I didn’t listen to any music or podcasts, just focused on tidying the place up. It was serene, almost mind numbingly so. I found it interesting what my mind went to. I was genuinely in a flow state making the funniest jokes imaginable. I was so funny, unfortunately no one heard these jokes to confirm, but I came up with some comedy gold.

However, I also wondered about if what I’m doing is right. Am I playing around by trying to start a startup in the construction industry? I don’t know the answer to these questions. I’ve been here before, faced with uncertainty about the future. There is no correct answer, but the best thing I can do is put my best foot forward into the construction startup. That is the best mechanism to salvage this experience if it goes awry.

I also found some satisfaction in taping perfectly. If you have to paint over something, you have to tape up the edge so you don’t get paint everywhere. The straight edge corners are easy to do but curves can be tricky. When I first started out it was jagged the curves were just a series of edges, but towards the end I was flowing, the curves were smooth. The bigger picture was finding passion in the little things no matter what you are doing. There is a sense of pride that comes from doing a good job, no matter what job it is. I’ve always thought about the satisfaction that comes from work, I think it’s important that you choose something you want to do, and something that can make you money. Lately, I’m shifting towards doing a good job, no matter what it is, which takes away the formal “passion”, instead of worrying about if this is the right thing for me, or finding different things to find satisfaction in, maybe I should find passion/satisfaction/pride in the work I do now.

Origin of Speices:

I don’t like reading this book, I genuinely feel like it’s saying the same thing over and over again.

Instead I picked up a new book called “The Learn Startup”, which is not only productive,currently, considering my own startup it is also good and easy read.

One thing that stood out to me, was how important the customer is in the business. Trying your best to understand the customer’s problem is at the heart of every company. I want that for my own company as well, that’s why I’m working in construction, when all my peers are doing fancy internships in big buildings, I’m sweeping floors and taping door hinges.