Broken Bones

This isn’t the first time I’ve broken my bone so the feeling of helpless isn’t new. Let me try and find my journal entry from then

Idk why but everyday I think today's the day it's all gonna change, but I rediscovered a new low. These past weeks after the track meet almost everything physical has been doing downhill. I'm really thankful that God made me this resilient, I'm not even that sad I'm just happy that tomorrow I get a new chance where I start to change little by little.

- Jess June 9th 2022

I still remember Kirollos and Ramit driving me home after school, when my foot was broken. I appreciate you guys, and I’ll never forget it.

Honestly, I’m not sure I need to add anything, but in many of ways I haven’t changed but let me expand on the people around me.

One thing that’s different is that I treasure the people around me much more. My brother stuck around the entire time, and he was talking to the me the whole time because everytime I fell asleep on wheelchair, my head would fall forward and wake up from the pain of moving my collarbone.

Arya came after I got a room. I don’t think neither Arya nor Jeff had any good rest. People were reaching out , I was pleasantly surprised that some of these people cared enough to text me. People were calling me to check up on me

(Meckyle and Samson called me as I was writing)

This is a great opportunity to be grateful for my right collarbone. It held my bones together for me. Using that as an analogy that’s how friends and family are to me. They provide the basis for everything I can do, and it probably affects my intellectual ability the same. In the same way unfortunately, I only notice the structure when it breaks. It’s necessarily designed like so, so we can build on top, and we don’t worry about out structure, we can focus on being offensive. In the fight for life, every step we take is one leap for humanity.

I am taking this as a learning opportunity, nothing except my collarbone is going to take a back seat. This year is going to be insane, this will be the greatest academic term of my life .There can be no better way to start the year, bones may be the broken, but I have a network of people supporting my every move.

Humility

This summer I ran a marathon, benched 225 at 140lb. Everything was going great until yesterday.

I always had some arrogance, knowing that worst case scenario I can fight and win, but this showed me that things can get out control very fast. I’ve done that armbar countless times and even looking back I would do the same thing, but hitting that move off the mats was worse than running away. In a real life scenario I would have died.