Facing Adversity
Facing adversity is something I've struggled with in the past. I often become deeply upset over trivial situations, which in the grand scheme of things don't matter. Nonetheless, they bring me down all the same. I'm not sure if this means I'm a soft guy o
Facing adversity is something I've struggled with in the past. I often become deeply upset over trivial situations, which in the grand scheme of things don't matter. Nonetheless, they bring me down all the same. I'm not sure if this means I'm a soft guy or if it's a common experience for everyone.
Our dealership had a huge sale going on for the Canada Day weekend. We were all given call sheets, to book as many appointments as possible. I called over 200 people over the week, setting up my weekend with appointments. I scheduled 12 appointments, I was very happy with the work I put in. I spent the time at the dealership booking appointments and at home, I'd research competitor cars, so I can answer any of their questions. I was ready to sell 10+ cars over the weekend.
Unfortunately, just 2 out of my 12 appointments showed up. I didn't sell the 2 that showed up. In fact, I didn't sell any customers during one of our biggest sales events. Even the new guy sold a car; everyone seemed so happy, selling so many cars. And there I was with not even a single car sold. I remember my customer knocking on the glass to say that he was leaving. I bit my lips and made weird faces to make sure I don't cry in front of the customer, then he left. I bolted for the washroom. At that moment, I didn't even know what was happening, but I crashed emotionally, and I found myself tearing up uncontrollably. I thought I was done crying, so I washed my face and returned to my desk. My manager came over and comforted me, but the tears wouldn't stop pouring out. My eyes were so messed up after that I had to wear my sunglasses, or people would instantly know that I was a little bitch.
The next day I went to work, smiling as hard as I could, making it seem that nothing had happened. My coworker called me out; he said, "Jess, I know that's not a real smile on your face." Those words hit me like a punch straight to the face. I didn't even know what to say; everyone could tell it was a fake smile. I just kept smiling and walked outside, then I finally let go of my super-wide smile. It's getting harder and harder to keep that smile on my face; everyone knows it's not genuine, but it's the least I can do to make it seem that I have everything under control. To be honest, I've never been challenged like this in my life. I don't know anything about cars; I thought I was a really confident guy, but I've caught myself stuttering more than ever before. I'm not sure what to believe in. This is a challenging shift for me, as much as it wears me out, I know that I will come out stronger than ever before.
I've been struggling with maintaining my composure when life throws curveballs my way. I tend to lose myself in the raw emotion of the moment. But, like everyone else, I'm just trying to figure out life one day at a time.
I’d like to garner a community of individuals who want to get be the absolute best through the toughest situations. If you have any advice, I'll gladly take it over Instagram or even in the comment section : )