Flowing
Before reading week, I was in such a good flow. Wake up, run, get to school and start studying. Everyday, some days better than others, but most days were solid. Ever since I took a couple days off, it hasn’t been the same. Yesterday I spent hours on Youtube. Even this morning I got out of bed at 9:00 AM, wasted so much time already. I set my alarm for 5:30 AM. I woke up, and I didn’t feel tired, but I went back to bed, and at that moment I knew that I messed up, but even in that state I couldn’t reason myself out of bed. I thought about what if I don’t achieve my dreams because I don’t wake up early and get after it. I thought about, if this 30 minutes of extra sleep is worth all that much, granted I had a full 8 hours. Usually when I think about death, it gets me up, but even the fact that maybe I could die within the next 30 minutes, didn’t get me up.
I feel like I know the reason why, usually before I go to bed. I tell myself that today might have been the last day, and then I say “Please God if I get another day, I’ll try my best to use every second with intention”. I didn’t do that last night, but was that the only thing holding my routine together? I’m pretty reliant on routine to get things done, but I don’t think that’s a bad thing. However, I’m surprised that I don’t have a will strong enough to push through the moments of weakness, especially getting up in the morning. The only way to get stronger, is by facing weakness.
Yesterday, I was studying ECE 302, Electronic Devices, and this class is so hard, it just started to piss me off so much that I stopped studying. ECE 340 Discrete Signals, I enjoy learning about systems, but I’ve been stuck on the same assignment for the past 3 days and it’s just not making sense. I’m pretty sure I’ve missed 2 classes this entire semester, and I try to listen in class and ask questions, but sometimes things slip past. All this to say, I’ve got to work harder, and not be challenged by difficulty, 302 and 340 are taught by normal humans, just like me.
Nathacks
I participated in a hackathon, and we were able to build a posture detection system. I didn’t write any of the code for the vision model, but here’s a link so you can try it for yourself.
Best,
Jess Manoj