July 25th: So Many Options

Today was a good day, I woke up at 6:00 AM with a goal of writing in the morning but that didn't get done. I went to work, and I was late so I felt bad because my manager told me to fix up. I should have drank more water today. I got to drive a manual wrangler all the way up to Spruce Grove, felt like a real man. After work I went to the gym as well, I caught up with my old friend Papakrito. It's been at least a year since I last saw him, he's doing extremely well for himself at the age of 18. I'm very proud of the man he's become. We worked out together, he really pushed me on abs. It was a good workout. Four years ago in high school during Covid, we would play league of legends together. I have his contact saved on my phone as Papakrito (his in game name), and he has me saved as Baljeet. I miss the old days where, school was super easy, we played league of legends all day and worked out. Adulthood has come with more freedom and control, moving forward all the big decisions I take are completely my own responsibility. I couldn't choose the highschool I went to or the country I lived in, but from now it's my choice. I hope I can use this freedom as an opportunity to grow and try new things.

So many things to do, so many things you CAN do, sometimes it feels like no matter what I do there's gonna somethings I wish I would have done. I might as well find that one thing, that could potentially make me happy. Focusing on one thing is so hard, especially when it gets difficult . Every year something changes, I recently turned 20, before when I was 12-14, I thought I'd have it all figured when I was 20 years old. Now I start this new chapter of my life with goals, but this time at least I know they will change over time as I change.

Tomorrow: I'l continue to work out everyday, and write everyday as well. I want to deeply consider my choices and figure out what I want to work on.