LOCKED IN - September 4th week
This is the first time in probably a year or so that I haven’t gone out to a party or hung out with friends for a whole month. ENGG IS HARD. That’s why I’m so happy, even though it's really difficult. I’ve never been pushed this hard in my life before. I’m not sure if I’ll break, but the adrenaline rush is too strong; for the first time in my life, I’ve been faced with concepts so complex that I don’t understand them at a glance.
The month is coming to an end. I’ve given it all up. I’m trying my best but I still get distracted. I’ve tried my hardest; I buzzed my hair, I stopped working, I said no to friends, girls, and even to comedy. I have been studying hard but it's not enough; sometimes I think maybe I’m just not studying the right way or maybe I’m just not smart, but either way, I have to keep going. It’s only going to get harder. We have to keep going; what doesn’t kill us only makes us stronger, it's the way of life. We’ll get used to it. We’ll keep working hard. If our grades don’t reflect the effort right now, then there will be a day when it does. For the time being, all we can do is give it our all.
I have a big exam tomorrow; no matter how many questions I do, I feel that I’m missing something. Maybe it’s because I slept in class, but that’s because I stayed up studying for another class. I don’t know what’s in store for me tomorrow, but I’m sure that I’ll be successful if I keep working hard.
Thanks for reading :) Good luck on your exams!
12: 30 AM on a friday night, first time in my life i've stayed at school for that long